okay. the truth is.
i was really really really looking forward to this year's game day.
but this didnt went as well as i wanted it to be.

first. on the day before the games day.
belle& i were doing our dnt. bad design on the phone.
then suddenly. out of the blue. she told me that we were going to be replaced.
i asked her why. all she said was. bridget wanted to win.
then, as i was online, i asked boonmay. i wanted to know the reason. it was jus so hard to accept.
she said cose bridget wanted to win, she is going to replace belle&i for the game, with the boys. cose we lost last year to 2d.
but the fact is that. bridget didnt even played for the semi-finals. and it was like our fault she was trying to say. we haven even play yet&she was afraid to lose.
so i was like telling may alot of stuffs. them she rmb that bridget didnt play. thats y we lost. so she said she wasnt goin to replace us le.
then i was overjoyed. over the moon

on the games day itself.in the morning, at the dnt workshop.
i asked bridget if we are still going to be replaced.
she said we will be; but only for one game.
so i thought it was pretty reasonable. since our opponent was like so strong.

after school. our first game started. again 2g. it was okay. we won.
second game2f. i waited there. the replaced us.
then while the second game was on, derrick called us to play floorball, where a min no of 2 gals were needed.
so we went as the next match was like 3omins time.
we played. we lost 0-1 to 2g.
but derrick wasnt satisfied.
he argued with the cca leader that we had shot a shot. then finally. one of leader said he saw us goal.
so it was penalty. 5 shots to each team. the higher points win.
so by that we won.

than sinmay called me, they said that it was our turn to play, netball
so i shot my goal, i entered, drop my stick, than ran to the assembly plaza.
they gave me the bib(position) , i wore it on.
sinmay said he had no position, bridget took the bib from me.
i told her i already had been replaced for one round; all she say halftime we'll switch.
i sat there waiting. half time, they just continued.
so i was like pretty upset. why did they have to do this to me.
we won, we were in the finals.

the next day during recess.
huijin came&sit beside me& told me.
'do u know that if u want to play the finals, bridget will give up her position for me? then she said somemore mean things, which i cant rmb. '
i asked her why she must tell me& not bridget herself
she said' cose jus now they all coming down, they all know but scared to tell me, so i help them tell'
i was like shocked. i didnt know i was that,lousy.
so i told bridget that i don need to play in the finals.
she said' noo..u must play.&all that craps.'

after sch. we went to videoworld.jael bm and i.
jael told me alot of stuffs.
yeah so when i was in the bus back home with jael.

i smsed bridget.
it wrote' hey. i heard everything. u said if i played our class sure lose. okay fine. jus say u don wan me to play¬ craps abt me playing n u not. u think im a 3yr old kid?u should have told me in the beginning u didnt want me to play. don go ard gossiping abt me. this is so unlike u bridget. i should have known.'

straightforward? thats not my prob. she hurt me.

she replied' i didnt say u weak or anything like that. i don want to tell you bcose i don wan you to be hurt so i finding a way to let you play and i swear i never say if you play we lose so u can play cosedoc also say maybe my leg wont heal in timeand im sry for all the pain i caused you. i promise next time ill tell you personally okay? im sry.'

so i sat there. at home. wondering what if i should believe.
i took a bowl of ice cream. i cried.
then bridget called me.
i forced back my tears.& talk to her. she asked if i was okay.
&i said i was. den i hang up.
she smsed me. 'pls be happy and not sad or angry. i don wan to see you sad and again im terribly and truely sorry. don be mad at me.
i thought abt what happen. maybe i was really that lousy.
i cheered up, but i was still sad beneath.
but if im really not playing. im not going to watch the game.


&friendship is more impt.
so i decided to put what behind.
new past