hey... i dont rly wna pour everything out here but sometimes it seems like this is the only place where i dont have to care about anything or everything.

things between j and i have been bad for sometime now ( half a month) and we barely been talking and by talking it means just texting. no calling at all, except once after the gazillion times i called him and he didnt pick up. like ive tried so much y'know but it seems like i've hit deadend and theres no turning back or theres no way to solving this at all. i dont know why he've changed so much and barely tolerate me anymore and the only thing on his mind now is his friends. what should i do? everytime i bring it up he'll say im showing attitude/curt/sarcastic/ dont understand him but i dont know. its like hes a totally new person now and the guy i fell in love with 2 years ago disappeared. i told him i felt that we should break up cause this is going nowhere and it doesnt even matters to him but he'll just blame me for harbouring these thoughts thats why we kept quarreling. im tired y'know. relationship are suppose to be 2 ways but i feel like im doing everything to keep us together. im sick of disappointments and false hopes, really. and to make matters worse, both of us are taking major papers this year and quarreling doesnt do us good at all. i've been failing cause i cant concentrate cause i keep drifting on to this...

tell me. should i just let it all go?
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