Tuesday, November 13, 2012, ϟ 0 shout(s)
I guess...This time is real.
Did i really do anything wrong? All i did was to get upset, because he ignored me, not just once, but many times throughout the day. I know he apologize for that and he immediately went to get me a drink... but i guess the many times i got ignored made me flare up and 1 apology wasn't enough? I was really upset, so i told him. At first he tried to hold my hand and hug me, but i struggled free because i really don't want him to touch me after he hurt me without appeasing me first.
but guess what he did..........he shouted back at me. he started scolding me. do you know how bad i felt? when i was already upset but he had to make it worse??? i tried to tell him, but he didn't listen and all he wanted to do was to tell me im wrong. in the first place he didn't even want me to go to his place(i went to his place as a surprise+bought breakfast), he didn't hear me when i asked, he just wanted to have fun when i said to stop.......the rest of the journey back home was horrid, i teared in the train, but he didn't care. all he cared was that why i couldn't accept his 1 apology and insisted it wasn't his fault.
I mean, i alr got upset and all he did was to rub salt in my wound. literally. lots of salt. then he wished me happy anniversary because its our 3rd year together today. and he wants me to forgive him for the sake of our anniversary.
I reallllly don't know what to say/feel/do. he called today because i told him to, but we took turns hanging up and now he's not picking up anymore.... is it really my fault? do you know he used to come all the way to my place, stood in front of my gate till i opened the door for him, just to hug me and to say hes sorry? well that was in year 1 of our relationship. it doesn't happen anymore, for this past 2 yrs.
all i really wanted him to do was yes to apologize(more than once), and stay there even though i push him away, till im better........
but he cant.
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