I can never figure out why relationships can get so complex and frustrating when all I needed was a shoulder to lean on... Quarrels after quarrels. I'm done w all that do you understand? I just don't want to get hurt again and end up hurting you back. So many things can't be said through text messages and yet everytime we quarrel you don't try to meet me to sort things out together. It's either I go to your place or we end up neither here nor there. Where's that spirit you had for us before? I don't see a glimpse of the persons I fell in love with 4 years back anymore. All I see is really just pride. Not for us but for yourself. I can't get through to you without you getting angry at whatever I said although you know it's true. We use to be able to talk for hours. Till I fall asleep halfway on the phone and then you'll double check if I'm really sleeping till you hang up. Bursting each other's bill. Looking out of my Windows just to see you outside my back door waiting for me to get down. I know you don't like me to write about us here/tell my friends whenever we encounter obstacles...but what can I do? I can't just bottle everything up its killing me but not you you get it? You asked me if I regret us. And really I have no idea. It used to be me and you against the world. Cliche yes but we had each other's back. At this rate we are texting each other now.. It isn't long before I become just a past, a memory, even a wrong move maybe?

There's so much things I want to say to you.. So many things we had plans for...

It's just not possible anymore because I've been replaced. Long ago but I've only just realised/admitted to it. I just want it to stop hurting so much. I just want to stop thinking about you because I know you're not. I'm just want to be happy.
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