I can't believe how weird things are between us. Our relationship is like a yo-yo, one moment its good, where you get to you know roll the yo-yo up and down the string...but most of the time is bad, like you lost the momentum and it gets no longer bounces back up, until you string it up again...

Yes, We quarreled again this week(on sunday), and this time I decided its enough. If we can't work together, what for stay together right? I mean why can't I be upset over his lack of effort for us? I just want proper dates and not like "hey lets go for dinner" alone.. Is that too much for ask for? It has been like that for way too long and I told him just too many times that its so boring but what? Nothing gets to him unless I kick up a fuss. Which I did... but it only made me even upset cause why why why do I have to tell him and why can't he know? Its not like there isn't google around, I just don't understand why he can't put in just a little effort for us...

I'm not going to write everything down here, although I really want to because I hate bottling up my feelings, but he won't understand so I better just stay safe and end it here.

I'll be back with a happier me, I promise.
new past