The same thing happened again..sometimes I'm so ashamed of myself...that people I love can't seem to see the good in me, but the little but many flaws I have, because I let you into my life and removed the walls, because I thought I will be safe with you. That you wouldn't use it against me and accept me for, well me.

Turns out that I'm wrong..there can never be a moment where you just put yourself in my shoes and understand what I'm going through/how hurt and vulnerable I am that all I need is you. All I need is for you to be here. Not for you to cancel past plans because you tthink you need time to think about us.

I thought if you love someone, there need not be any consideration. You'll know I'm the one and no matter what you will still want to be with me, because you love me... Why do you always need time alone to think? Do you really need to weigh all my flaws and good with a balance scale then decide? Don't you already know in your heart what you want and what you are willing to fight for?

I've been fighting with you, over your friends for the past few months/year....and after every quarrel we solve you still do the same thing to me? Despite all your promises? I don't know what to do or to say to get you to realise that I really want to give up, not because it's too difficult. But because you're telling me just how little I mean to you...




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