I wish I never liked you.

I wish I didn't waste all those times talking to you or thinking about you. I wish I didn't worry or cared about all the times you ignored me. I wish I didn't put you first, letting my bestfriends slip past, letting my grades fall. I wish I never got excited everytime you made me feel special. I wish I never believed every word you said. I wish I never got my hopes high for you. And I wish I never kept trying and trying, knowing I would just go through the same thing. Because in the end, the one that gets hurt isn't you.
Its me.

I'm falling apart, for the hundredth time, and I feel like I just want to crawl under a rock and never come out. I love you with all my heart, even though I know I shouldn't. You hurt me worse than I've ever been hurt. You stole my happiness, but yet, I still want you, and only you. 

I won't fight for us anymore. So many times you said it. So many times I stood by trying.

Because if you really love something, set it free. If it comes back it's yours, if not it wasn't meant to be.