:( I really wish I am stronger than that. Every quarrel I have to be the one that goes to you. No matter who is wrong. Why can't I mean more to you? Do you really matter so much to me that even though you hurt me so much I swallow my pride and still throw myself at you? Are you really that important to me? Why can't I live each day without you like you can without me? Have I lost my mind? Is this the life I want to lead? Believing you and your promises after every quarrel but yet every new challenge we take you fail me no matter what.

And I can't tell you all this cause the moment you know you'll want out immediately.

I'm so tired. Am I your girlfriend? Or am I just a trophy to you?

Despite all these, I want you, more than ever. But I am just afraid to let you know how much I really do love you..
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